Friday, December 26, 2008
Hope you all had a great Christmas. We greatly enjoyed Christmas morning together as a family but from about 3pm on it was very difficult. I noticed some blood when I went to the bathroom and of course was very upset. I made it through the rest of the day without falling apart but it was a long night. I went to the ER this morning and my cervix was closed which was a good sign so they sent me to the maternity ward for an ultrasound. There was no baby on the ultrasound and one of my ovaries appeared to be enlarged and sagging. I was very upset to say the least! It didn't help that we had to wait several hrs in the ER following the ultrasound to get a report from the doctor and radiologist. There is a possible chance I could have an ectopic pregnancy in the ovary but the hope is that I have just miscarried and that there is nothing wrong with my ovary. I will go back on Sunday afternoon to have my hormone levels checked again to be sure they aren't increasing. I am feeling beyond frustrated right now. I don't understand how I could have 3 perfect pregnancies and then miscarry 2 in a row like this. It is hard not to be afraid that I won't be able to have another baby. It would be one of the worst things that could ever happen to me. Please pray for me not to be afraid and that God will allow us to have more children!