Friday, December 26, 2008

Disappointing News

Hope you all had a great Christmas. We greatly enjoyed Christmas morning together as a family but from about 3pm on it was very difficult. I noticed some blood when I went to the bathroom and of course was very upset. I made it through the rest of the day without falling apart but it was a long night. I went to the ER this morning and my cervix was closed which was a good sign so they sent me to the maternity ward for an ultrasound. There was no baby on the ultrasound and one of my ovaries appeared to be enlarged and sagging. I was very upset to say the least! It didn't help that we had to wait several hrs in the ER following the ultrasound to get a report from the doctor and radiologist. There is a possible chance I could have an ectopic pregnancy in the ovary but the hope is that I have just miscarried and that there is nothing wrong with my ovary. I will go back on Sunday afternoon to have my hormone levels checked again to be sure they aren't increasing. I am feeling beyond frustrated right now. I don't understand how I could have 3 perfect pregnancies and then miscarry 2 in a row like this. It is hard not to be afraid that I won't be able to have another baby. It would be one of the worst things that could ever happen to me. Please pray for me not to be afraid and that God will allow us to have more children!

4 comments:

Sheilah said...

Praying for you

Crystal said...

I'm also praying for you.

The Rich Family said...

Thank You for your prayers, We definitely could use them right now!

Jen Z said...

I remember when I was 7 weeks pregnant with Noah I started to bleed a whole lot. So I thought I had a miscarriage. So I went to the doctor and he said he saw a heart beat. I was like what and I was in shock. I had to go home and stay on bed rest and there was still a possibility I could still miscarry but I remember thinking wait a minute my God is bigger than this. So I started to pray over him everyday...I would pray health and life and protection...I think sometimes I would find myself praying like 5 or more times a day. But i guess what I am trying to say is that Noah is really a gift from God and he was faithful to me even when I had doubts and fear. But I can look back now and God really had his hand around Noah even when he was still in the womb. God is bigger than any circumstances in our life. And he is faithful even when we are not. And he is the God who redeems. You never know maybe you will have twins! But I will be praying for you and for your future pregnancies! Love u